I just read TxxLxxx's blog, and i REALLY dun wanna sign up to post a comment, and since he RSS'ed my blog to his page, i guess he will see it so i'll post it here anyway.
If i don't know, i really don't know. Not that i dun wanna do it, but if i can't find the answer and i can't think of it, i will fucking highlight it. I don't like throwing my teammates to DIE, but if i can't fucking do it, i try to find a solution but don't fucking say im fucking lazy to do fucking it.
If you think its a fucking excuse so be it.
Oh yeah just to add on, i don't work at your fucking pace so if you wanna rush the 9am train go on ahead. AND, I don't fucking work at an extreme pace. I'm not as good as you seem. I got problems with maths already. I'M FUCKING STRUGGLING MAN.
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From your first paragraph, I guess you're expecting a reply. So here i am. Tada pointed me to ur blog though. Anything u can talk to me straight in the face =) And my blog is really not directed against ya.. Jus happens that you're a good example =)
Firstly, jus remember/recall what xan/gerald did to such people. Did i do that? I always believe in giving chances. But u go and count how many proj and assignments were there. i bet it's more den one hand can count =)
2ndly, my pace? i only pace u =)you wont see me making jian wei finish work. the one week hol i neber even sms him to ask if he finish his part. i do set milestones like 2 weeks before dateline to finish up on all features. that's for testing debugging and design improvements. jus that u got freaking bad records that needs pacing.. ^_^
As for the part on I don't know and i really don't know.. what to do? help u out? EVERY SINGLE TIME? i dun know..do i get paid for helping? do i get help when i don't know? who do i ask? there's times when even anis can't help. so do i say "let's dun do this cos i can't do it" .. If it's really impossible to do.. obviously i'm asking for too much.. BUT EVERY SINGLE TIME U SAY IT'S NOT POSSIBLE I DID IT AND SHOW IT TO YOU IT'S DOABLE!!! I bet that's countless times. Let's say for instance the sound capturing part.. Even anis and his friends are not sure .. they gave weird solutions which i dun know.. But did i jus give up cos there's no visible and obvious solution? i still come up with one.
Maybe you'll think "I'm not you!" It says alot about the phrase "finding excuses" =) The thing is .. so if everyone doesn't know how to do.. what to do? sit around and die? U're jus taking things for granted that it'll be solved by someone else in the group. When i'm lost , i jus need to be pointed the right direction(which i always do to u but u think i'm always too brief and skeptical). I'm not a TA and i'm not paid. Simple as that. ^_^ Do i look like mr nanny? or a float? I don't know. =x All i can think of is letting u drown and hope and pray u'll learn doggy style and swim ashore.
As for the part on maths, you chose it =) Time is a very important factor. amazingly u still have time for maple. I remember last sem and the sem before the last.. I dun get to dota for 2 months or even the whole sem. Not even movie or go out or a pool session ESPECIALLY TO DO UR FREAKING PARTS. so.. try not mapling .. it helps.. As for gf routines, hmmm I believe in 2 things , one "I'll give everything up for her" , two "if she understands me , she'll support me" .. both applies.. ^_^
Dude it's all about being pointed in the right direction and strife for it. And seriously enough is enough... I touch my small black heart and i dare to say i ask heart no guilt (wen xin wu kui). I did all i can and could have. maybe u need a skirt and bra den i'll feel guilty =x No more means no more. as tada said i spoilt u . I watched last week episode on breakthrough(chinese drama) i understood one logic. If you're my mistake i have to clean it up with my own hands. it's not correcting it's cleaning up =x
Bleh.. I really getting naggy.. Pens off here.. still got work to do. ^^V longer den ur post.
"I'm not you" is really the only excuse i can give now. I'm not a genius. I am just as amazed as to how i got into uni. Sometimes i really wonder if i really got in with my abilities or just 300 scripts fell into the pacific ocean and 300 deserving souls have to forgo their chance. I don't work at a fast pace. I dun think the way you do. I try to see everything as possible but i just can't fucking make it happen. You say i maple, and i do. for about 30 minutes before i say "i gotta go. too much things to do." Compared to a 3 hour dota session, i dunno if it affects . You be the judge.
As for parts that i have to do, i admit that time i haven't waken up my idea. I still am somewhat dozing, thus further highlighting the first point of "HOW THE FUCK DID I GET INTO NUS??" But after that i have to try and now i can say i am working at a pace i should have in secondary school. Maybe i can study better. I. REALLY. AM. NOT. YOU. You can study on hours on end, i got a short attention span that somehow kicks in every 30 minutes. It's how i am. If you think i got a katana that can mutate into a bigger version at the yell of a "BANKAI" or i can conjure up a fucking mask that makes me think faster, no i don't. I'm not that capable, i try but im not progressing as fast. So if im not living up to your expectation, i'm sorry, i fucked up. So don't bitch about me. It's who i am, and i'm TRYING to change. But don't expect a BANKAI happening anyday.
Wonder how many words i wrote.
If u given up on urself , den nothing i can say. I always say to people . To Change Depends On One
But if you really wanna give up , den so be it.. jus dun jio me do project and let me die with ya.. simple as that. ^^ I always like to help. but not die helping ..
for the dota part , I dota when i finish or know i'll finish. ^_^ u wont see me dota when i still got freaking hell tons of unfinish work. that's the difference. U can maple for days for all i care if u got nothing better to do. I really got nothing against mapling.
Stop asking urself how u get into nus. ask urself how u wan to get out. u're in and that's a fact. face it. Firstly, i'm not a genius. I'm not anis , i'm not travis , simple . And it's not MY expectation. You can join other groups and see for urself what's reality dude.. wakie wakie on that part. u think OTHER people will buy ur story on I just can't do it? U'll jus end up losing popularity and tanishing more of ur reputation (if it's not tanish enough) . It's really not MY expectation . It's jus that i TELL U what's going on. Others will jus use actions. I don't wan one day be the one saying "get the hell out of my group den". which i did to other people. I bet u hear such stories too. do u sympathize such people? I don't ..
Reality reality... face it or hide from it forever and swore never to see the light again =)
I am to say again i'm not genius. My ability is traded with my time. I'm jus a chao ah beng that accidentally got into Uni.
If u wan to die , go far far away. If you wan help, show me u deserve it.
Alright then.
Work work.
btw, i did say im marking grammar.
i still got freaking hell tons of unfinished work
(if it's not tanished enough)
U'll jus end up losing popularity and tanishing more of ur reputation - i dun agree on this statement: i never was popular and i never had a good reputation. i thought you knew.
Reality reality... face it or hide from it forever and swear never to see the light again =)-
italicized is double use of a descriptive noun, or a very bad poem line.
I'm tired out.
U can't mark grammar with singlish =x
I is good ^^V
I neber say u're popular or with good reputation. low popularity or even negative is still popularity . it's measurement =x like wise reputation.
It's really up to u ..
I can't make u work or face reality ^_^
nope, singlish is just a subset of the bigger english picture.
Like this post, i got my views just like you got yours. It depends on your level of acceptance.
Reality has always been there. Just that it fucking sucks.
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